Touched by the Master

Have you ever had one of those moments, either painful or delightful, when you knew that you were in the center of God’s will for your life? Have you ever felt the presence of the Lord so strongly, that you wept? If you know me well, you know that crying comes easier to me these days. I cry at the Kleenex commercials. My girls always look at me at the end of Extreme Home Makeover to make sure that it was touching to me (then they laugh, sometimes to themselves, but other times so I have to notice). It is okay with me. I realize after many years of taking on every emotion that could be thought of and instead of dealing with them and expressing them in a healthful way, I internalized. I didn’t cry or yell or take a walk or talk it out, I just shut down. I guess the seemingly excess tears I shed now are from years of not releasing them at all.

I experienced one of those God moments yesterday as I went to church. Kacey was leading worship at Calvary Chapel in Plantation. It was not because she was singing, even though I was so honored to be able to be present. While all of the music was inspirational, one of the songs touched me deeply. One of the songs was sung just for me. The message was presented and even though it dealt with an area of struggle in my life, the message was just for me. It was an appointment with Majesty. It was an appointment that left me wanting to hide under the seats, but at the same time wanted to sing at the top of lungs for my Creator to take notice of me. My Creator is so great that He planned this service with the purpose of ministering to me. All I can say is WOW!